“Be beautiful inside, in your hearts, with the lasting charm of a gentle and quiet spirit that is so precious to God.” 1 Peter 3:4 (TLB)
Y’all, I love God and His Word—but I’ve always had a slight problem with this verse.
If I am anything, it’s NOT Quiet!
I can usually pull off Gentle if I really try, but Quiet is just not part of my DNA.
So when I read that God delights in the Gentle and Quiet, I feel like a failure. Like I’ve let Him down. That I’ll never measure up to this standard of His. It’s just not in Me.
But I SO want it to be! I want God to look at me and smile. I want Him to see me, not only covered by the blood of Jesus, but as a daughter He is proud of and happy to see.
Lately He’s been pulling back on the reigns of my heart, whispering “whoooaaa!” and telling me I need to ease up.
(More on those later.)
But today, He read this verse to my heart in a new way.
It’s not my personality that needs to change, it’s my spirit—my inner disposition.
He isn’t pleased when I simply bite my tongue.
It’s not gently holding out my finger for a bird to perch on like a Disney princess that He delights in.
It’s about the quietness and gentleness within my heart and head.
It’s being at peace.
Putting duck tape over my mouth but allowing The Type A Voices in my to head go 90 to nothing is not being at peace.
Letting my heart beat wild with frustration though I act gentle on the outside is not being at peace.
Being at peace means my insides are calm. My heart rate is normal. The Voices are silent.
Being at peace is a gift of God and a fruit of His Spirit, not mine.
Jesus said, “I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart! And the peace I give isn’t fragile like the peace the world gives. So don’t be troubled or afraid.” John 14:27
Truthfully, I know God made me to be exactly who I am, minus my sin nature. He says I am His creation; He thought me up!
He gave me this loud mouth to use for His glory.
He gave me a Git’er Done work ethic to accomplish His agenda.
God is not asking me to change who I am in this verse, He’s just asking me to be at peace.
God, what does it look like when I am truly at peace? What does it feel like? How do I act?
I am most at peace when I’m in my Happy Place—swaying in a hammock on the beach.
Nowhere to be.
Nothing to accomplish.
No one to please.
Lying in that hammock I have control of my mouth, my actions, my thoughts.
I think clearly before I speak and my heart isn’t in a hurry.
I’m just Me and God is smiling.
Unfortunately, I live nowhere near the beach so physically going to my Happy Place isn’t an option. That’s why I desperately need Jesus.
It is only by His Spirit, through that Gift He left us that we go there in spirit. Even when demanding situations and stressful chaos surround us, we can be at peace on the inside.
Kinda like when Happy Gilmore thinks of Grandma and sinks a putt.
May we find our Happy Place in Him today and be beautiful inside.
Heavenly Father, I know You created me to be exactly who I am. You have a purpose and plan for ME. Thank you for showing me You’ve not set the bar too high. May Your Spirit bring that peaceful, easy feeling to my heart and mind no matter my surroundings, that I would use my mouth and actions in ways that please You. Thank you for Your grace and love for ME. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.